ang iyong mga mata ay tulad ng dagat
malalim, maalon, masalimuot
dinadala ako sa kailaliman
tinatangay, nililigaw, nilulunod

ang iyo’ng mga ngiti ay tila paru-paro
nakalilinlang, nakalilito
kulay dilaw, kulay asul, kulay pula
maganda, mahinhin, matalinhaga

ikaw ang liwanag sa kalaliman ng gabi
ang pag-asa, ang buhay, ang tamis
ang buwan, mga bituin, ang bulalakaw
nakabibighani, nakaliligalig, nakatutunaw

ikaw ang bahaghari
makulay, matingkad, mahiwaga
ako’y binibihag, inaakit, inaalipin
humihilam, tumutagaygay, kumakandili


A Very Serendipitous Episode

writing is truly my destiny

writing is truly my destiny

The ground was still damp and the leaves of the trees were still wet due to the continuous rain from the past few days. Cecilia was seriously doing her articles inside her confined dark room when she heard her close friend’s familiar voice outside the gate. It has been months since the last time they saw each other and she was truly pleased to see her again. She wasn’t sure why her friend wanted to see her but she had a gut feeling that there was something about this surprise visit.

Cecilia just listened from one topic to another, laughed from one joke to the next, and patiently waited for her to drop the bomb. After a few hours of never-ending banter, at long last, she revealed the startling news.

Her friend ended her almost six-year relationship. The news shocked Cecilia more than anything. If there was one relationship she admired the most, it was her friend’s – because it was ideal. It was almost perfect.

If Cecilia learned about the news a few years ago, she would definitely be single until now, forever fearful of getting herself involved with any man. She was sad for her friend, deeply disappointed with the fact that they already had plans for the future – a nice wedding, their own happy family and a small business. And just because of a relationship that has become more of a routine, she decided to put an end on it. Just like that.

Cecilia was still trying to absorb all the details about this ‘another’ failed relationship when her friend bid goodbye and went home. While Cecilia was left shaken by the news, she felt so blessed. Everybody seems to be breaking up and it made her realized that what she has right now is something she should be truly thankful for.

She had been in so many heartaches in the past that she was already used to the terrible feeling. Because of the pain she had gone through, it came to a point when she no longer believed in men and love in general. She assumed that relationships come and go and love is really just a state of mind. At that moment, her only love affair was with her pen and paper. She created characters in her mind and fabricated love stories where all her fantasies could come to life. She invented male characters that possess qualities she could only dream of – charming, intelligent, humorous, passionate. She made up romantic scenes from her vivid imagination and wrote down sweet dialogues she only wished to hear. If not with her romantic and compelling characters, her life would definitely be a complete bore.

That was more than a year ago. Now, Cecilia is no longer a skeptic when it comes to men and in love. Her lifelong dream of meeting a man who would sweep her off her feet has finally come into reality, in a very serendipitous episode. He was all she could ever hope for.

Up to now, it still amazes her whenever she thinks about how she came across that website. She never imagined that a single click on the mouse could change her entire life forever. One day, she just found herself doing something she was not familiar with and simply realized that she was starting to enjoy every single minute of it. Her enjoyment was intensified after a few weeks of writing when she received a ym message from a total stranger – that simple message struck Cecilia like lightning and she had no idea that it was the beginning of something wonderful.

Initially, her intention in signing up was to know more about how the internet works and how it could help her with her writing aspiration. Cecilia wants to be a novelist. She has always dreamed of becoming a novelist for a long time and she’s willing to leave her comfort zone and think out of the box just to reach her goal.

For many, is probably just an ordinary company, a good means to earn income. But for Cecilia, is a lot more than that. It gave her so much more than she wished for. Apart from the additional income, gave her many reasons to laugh and to live again. will forever play an important part in Cecilia’s life. It helped hone her skill in writing. She became a better person because of the company and learned so much ever since she started working for them. gave Cecilia the chance to meet interesting people and new friends who happen to be some of the coolest and the most wonderful friends she has ever met. And most importantly, Cecilia owes everything she has become at present because through the company, she was able to meet the man who only existed in her imagination.

That serendipitous episode granted her a clearer vision of the future. is a one huge and significant adventure that she would never trade for anything in the world. If she could turn back time, she would still want to stumble upon website to find the man of her dreams and fall in love all over again.

i love…

i see only you

i see only you

I love the sparkle in your eyes every time you look at me. I love the feeling of your hands against mine as we walk alongside each other. I love the way you smile at me and i love the sound of your easy laughter. I love the way we make fun of random things and laugh our hearts out without caring what other people might think. I love our movie marathon moments while you hold me in your arms as if you never want to let me go. I love the way you whisper ‘I love you’.

I love Wednesdays and I love those days in between because I know we’ll be seeing each other again soon. I love thinking about you on my way to our favorite spot and I love that tingling sensation I feel every time I see you standing there, waiting for me. I love walking next to you, I love looking at you when you talk. I love listening to your stories and I love laughing at your ‘sale’ moments. I simply love laughing with you.

I love your surprises. I love the flowers, chocolates, Gabriel, the blue teddy and even those simple and unexpected endearing things you say and do. I love your sweet text messages and our daily conversations. I love our talks about places we want to see together, about the plans we have in the future. I love thinking about those crazy things we aim to do someday. I love the ‘things’ that make our relationship more special. I love the feeling you evoke in me. I love our connection, everybody around us must be aware of the magic between us, which is undeniable.

I love your wisdom and your imagination. I love your sweetness, your sincerity, your passion. I simply love everything about you. And I love the fact that you love me.

Ten Things I love About Neil Raymundo

1. Neil always makes me laugh. There’s never a dull moment when I’m with him. He knows all the crazy and funny things to say especially when I’m feeling down. Being with him is like being in a romantic comedy movie. He’s the Henry Roth of my life.
2. He is the most thoughtful person I know. Neil always puts me first on his list, making me feel so special every single day.
3. Neil is a true artist. He has the talent that never fails to amaze me.
4. I love his surprises. From his unexpected romantic letters, to his fantastic works of art. He brought fun and excitement into my life and I would never trade his affection for the world.
5. Neil is one of the deepest and most intelligent people I have ever met. His wisdom is just remarkable. I’ve learned so much about so many things ever since I met him.
6. Neil has the power to turn my saddest day into a perfect moment. I don’t know how he does that – changing my mood through his romantic thoughts.
7. His level of understanding is still a mystery to me. No matter how stubborn I get or how difficult I become, he always finds a way to understand me.
8. Neil is my confidant. I can tell him all my thoughts, opinions, dreams and fears anytime I want. He is always there whenever I need someone to talk to or every time I yearn for someone who could listen to my rants.
9. He is very passionate. In everything he does. He has a big heart and I feel so lucky to have it. His passion makes me fall for him all over again.
10. Neil is the epitome of an ideal man. Although he is a child at heart, he still finds a way to be romantic and responsible all the time. His love is everlasting and it is mine. Only mine.


teaser ng kilig moments (isang liham para sa isang kaibigan)

ahay sa ngayon, sa ganitong paraan ko muna ikukwento ang mga kilig moments sa nakalipas na ilang buwan. pero pramis, wala ito sa kalingkingan ng kilig na nararamdaman ko ahaha.
basta nung sinimulan n’ya kong kulitin sa ym, akala ko, joke lang kasi nga diba bossing sha. tas hanggang everyday every night na kaming magkachat. dumating sa point na mejo nag-iwasan kami (more of iniwasan n’ya ko ahaha) kasi nga may feelings na ata ahay. hanggang sa naisipan namin parehong magmit. ayun. after a week ata, krismas party ng company namin, tas after one week pa ulet, kami na *kilig*. di ko alam kung may nangyaring ligawan (o ako ata ang nanligaw) kasi eversince, sobrang palagay na loob namin at undeniable ang attraction. probably, we felt something for each other even from the start, kailangan lang ng formality. ayun nung start mejo nagkakaroon ng conflicts kasi mejo seloso ang lolo mo at mejo possessive. super sensitive sha pramis (mas sensitive pa sakin) na nung una nga nagiging cause ng issues. pero ngayon, pareho na kaming nakapag-adjust *super hapi*.
nung una, intimidated ako sa kanya kasi nga sikat sa internet at sobrang intelektuwal. at shempre, flattered ang lola mo nung nalaman ko ang feelings nya for me na sa dinami-dami ng babae, nahulog sha sa piktur ko sa prengster ahahaha. kung pede ko lang i-paste dito lahat ng logs namin sa ym mula simula hanggang ngayon, ginawa ko na. kaso nagwori ako baka langgamin ang pc mo sa sobrang sweetness at sa akin mo pa i-charge ang pagpagawa muhaha.
ayun nga. he’s the sweetest man. the most sensitive. the most loving. the most talented. the best. di ko na maimagine ang sarili ko na hindi sha ang kasama. pramis. he made me believe in love again and in miracles.
kung gaano sha ka-sweet nung mga unang araw kaming nagkakilala sa ym, ganun pa rin sha ka-sweet ngayon. walang pinagkaiba. kung meron man, mas lalo lang shang naging romantic. ahay. di naman obyus na inlab na inlab na inlab ako no? ahahahha sori naman inlab na inlab na inlab nga ako.
yun lang. kailangan ko munang tigilan ang pagkukwento at baka ako naman ang langgamin dito ahaha. kwentuhan na lang ulet sa susunod. amishu

isang liham para sa ika-dalawang buwan ng matamis na pag-iibigan


     Wala na.

     Wala na akong masabi.

     Ang dalawang buwan ay para bang dalawampung taon.

     Sa sobrang dami ng mga nakatutuwa, nakakikilig, nakaaaasar at nakawiwindang na pangyayari, pakiramdam ko ay habang buhay na tayong magkasama.

     Sa tuwing mayroon tayong hindi pagkakaunawaan, minsan gusto ko nang sumuko at tigilan na lang ang lahat. Pero anu ba, para ko namang pinigilan ang sarili ko na huminga.

     Gano’n ang nararamdaman ko para sa’yo. Na parang kapag nawala ka ay hindi ako makakahinga. Ikaw ang isa sa mga dahilan kung bakit ako masaya at ayokong mawala ‘yon.

     Sa tinagal-tagal ng panahon ng paghihintay at pag-asam sa isang tulad mo, hanggang ngayon ay hindi ko pa rin lubos maisip na nagkaroon ako ng pagkakataon na makilala ka.

     Nasabi ko na sa’yo noon na isa ka sa pinakamalalim na nilalang na nakilala ko sa buong buhay ko at hindi ako magsasawa na sabihin sa’yo na isa kang henyo (ang umangal, itutulak ko sa bangin). Totoo ‘yon at hindi magbabago ang paniniwala ko’ng ‘yon sa pagdaan ng maraming panahon. Nirerespeto kita (kahit minsan hindi halata). Nirerespeto ko lahat ng pinaniniwalaan at sinasabi mo.

     Hindi ko inaasahan na mayroon pa pala’ng lalaking katulad mo na nabubuhay sa mundo – sensitibo, mapagmahal, maaalalahanin, makulit, sentimental, intelektuwal sa lahat ng bagay (wala itong eksaherasyon). Ikaw ‘yung madalas kong gawing bidang lalaki sa aking mga nobela.

     Sabi ko, wala na akong masabi pero heto, may sasabihin pa ako-

     Mahal na mahal kita, Neil. Kalimutan mo na ang lahat ng una kong mga nasabi, ‘wag lang ‘tong huli.



para kay neil

ang mga mata ko’y sa’yo lang titingin
sa diyos sa langit ikaw lang ang hiling
kahit sino pa ang aking makita
ikaw pa rin ang aking sinisinta

kahit pa manligaw si piolo pascual
pangako sa’yong ikaw lang ang mahal
wala akong pakialam kay jericho
dahil sa’yo lamang ang pag-ibig ko

haranahin man ako ni christian
isama pa si mark at eric sa kantahan
wala akong iba pang maririnig
kundi ang napakaganda mong tinig

kahit pa bigyan ako ni aga mulach
ng libu-libong mga bulaklak
wala ‘yong halaga sa akin
ikaw pa rin ang iisipin

‘pag niyaya akong mag-date ni geoff eigenmann
ako’y tatanggi nang walang alinlangan
si john lloyd kahit tumawag sa’kin
hinding-hindi ko s’ya kakausapin

hindi ko papansinin si sam milby
at kahit pa muling mabuhay si elvis presley
kahit pa sinong sikat sa buong mundo
sa’yo ay wala pa ring tatalo

si michael buble’ man ang umawit
pag-ibig man niya’y hanggang langit
‘wag na ‘wag kang magdaramdam
ako sa iyo’y di magpapaalam

wala akong ibang hiling
kundi ikaw lamang ang makapiling
nag-iisa lamang ang nais ko
ang makasama ang tulad mo